Here are a few of my favourite things, in no particular order: the smell of sun cream, the heat of the sun, the beach, miniskirts, being warm, long evenings, bbqs. So you can imagine how autumn might not be my favourite time of year.
I usually get a pang of sadness in that first week when you can feel the chill in the air. It was a bit different this year; for starters the chill arrived sometime in June and a few external factors have got me digging in a big black hole of bleakness. The sleepless thing hasn’t been helping – there have been nights when I’m up once an hour, every hour and wake up thinking how pointless going to bed was – but I think I’m coming to the end of that few weeks of torture. Seriously, there have been times I’ve felt so irrational, slow-minded and hopeless that I’ve wondered if my lack of sleep is leading to me going a little bit nuts, but I just pull up my pyjamas and eat another chocolate bar and everything is fine.
NB; I worked out the other day that I haven’t had a full nights sleep since April. APRIL.
When the end of October is on the horizon I start to perk up. The trees are beautiful, my face is used to the cold and so tells my nose to stop running, we move from wearing shoes to boots and there’s the small matter of Halloween and Bonfire night. There’s something lovely about carving pumpkins, making squash soup and sitting by the fire as the nights draw in. Bonfire night, despite the cold, is one of my favourite times of year. The air smells a certain way and takes me back to nights spent as kids at our local golf club’s firework display: a huge bonfire that warns your face, contraband sparklers (warnings on Blue Peter to WEAR YOUR GLOVES!) and toffee apples. Happy times when there was nothing to worry about. Not council tax, no dodgy boilers, no grown-up issues… just the fireworks and a good pork bap.
Then of course we’re at free fall into Christmas, and everybody loves a good family Christmas. We’re hosting this year and I can’t wait to have so many people we love under one roof.
Memories. That’s what this season is all about.