Autumn Thoughts.

Here are a few of my favourite things, in no particular order: the smell of sun cream, the heat of the sun, the beach, miniskirts, being warm, long evenings, bbqs. So you can imagine how autumn might not be my favourite time of year.

I usually get a pang of sadness in that first week when you can feel the chill in the air. It was a bit different this year; for starters the chill arrived sometime in June and a few external factors have got me digging in a big black hole of bleakness. The sleepless thing hasn’t been helping – there have been nights when I’m up once an hour, every hour and wake up thinking how pointless going to bed was – but I think I’m coming to the end of that few weeks of torture. Seriously, there have been times I’ve felt so irrational, slow-minded and hopeless that I’ve wondered if my lack of sleep is leading to me going a little bit nuts, but I just pull up my pyjamas and eat another chocolate bar and everything is fine.

NB; I worked out the other day that I haven’t had a full nights sleep since April. APRIL.

When the end of October is on the horizon I start to perk up. The trees are beautiful, my face is used to the cold and so tells my nose to stop running, we move from wearing shoes to boots and there’s the small matter of Halloween and Bonfire night. There’s something lovely about carving pumpkins, making squash soup and sitting by the fire as the nights draw in. Bonfire night, despite the cold, is one of my favourite times of year. The air smells a certain way and takes me back to nights spent as kids at our local golf club’s firework display: a huge bonfire that warns your face, contraband sparklers (warnings on Blue Peter to WEAR YOUR GLOVES!) and toffee apples. Happy times when there was nothing to worry about. Not council tax, no dodgy boilers, no grown-up issues… just the fireworks and a good pork bap.

Then of course we’re at free fall into Christmas, and everybody loves a good family Christmas. We’re hosting this year and I can’t wait to have so many people we love under one roof.

Memories. That’s what this season is all about.

8 Comments
  1. I am a Summer person but I also love Autumn, in fact I wrote a post all about moments and memories earlier with some autumny snaps. April is a long time to go without a good sleep and for some reason it all feels worse at winter when the nights are closing in. I remember that when Mads was a newborn I used to dread nights because it would be so dark and depressing, with all the broken sleep as well- ugh.

    But just like you said Christmas is around the corner and I for one love it! It will be lovely for you to host in your gorgeous home, I bet it will definitely be a Christmas to remember. (Plus Autumn is an excuse for hot chocolate, marshmallows and cream and thats got to be a good thing?!)
    x

    1. Ooh that reminds me – I recently found a homemade hot choc recipe, definitely going to have to give that a go!

      There is nothing worse than getting up to a newborn throughout the night then early in the morning when it’s freezing cold and miserable! x

  2. Lovely post, I adore Autumn (but feel your pain for moving on from summer-we didn’t really have one this year!)-I also recently blogged about Autumn too. Stunning stills x

  3. I’m totally a summer person and I always get a little week or two of depression when the air gets cooler, pumpkins appear on porches and leaves start falling from the trees. But like you, once I get over that little hump, I sort of love it! Especially because Thanksgiving and Christmas in America is a blast!

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