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Three Years On – What Post-Natal Depression Felt Like For Me

October 12, 2015
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It was mental health awareness day on Saturday. I don’t think anyone can disagree with the fact that mental health is not talked about enough and we hear of examples of our health system failing people on a daily basis. We’re making steps towards wider public acceptance of mental health awareness but there is still some way to go. I have written about my own experiences with Post-Natal Depression in the past and though I am thankfully not affected any more…

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How To Find Your Happiness

March 12, 2014
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One thing I’ve learned this year is that nobody knows introspection more than a woman who has lived through post-natal depression. And I know this because now I’m almost 365 days out the other side of my experience – a year clean – I search inside for answers more than ever before. I analyse my thoughts and feelings, probably more than I should, but it’s because of this I’m able to interpret and vocalise the way I’m feeling which means I…

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Onwards and Upwards (or, Screw You PND)

June 19, 2013
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One of the things I’ve been most worried about through my desertion of you lovely people is the complete lack of updates I’ve given you on my PND journey. I felt like I shared so much through a time in my life that was probably the hardest for me; the realisation that something was wrong, the awful visit to the GP, the phone calls to the Health Visitor, the Prozac. Looking back on it now I can see what a…

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Self-Imposed Writers Block

April 24, 2013
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The thing about writing a blog that prides itself on its honesty and ‘bare-all’ attitude is that sometimes you have to draw a line. This writing I do right here is so very important to me and has shaped me in a way I never felt possible. It’s helped me through hard times and cheered me through happy ones; blogging is a part of my life that is so important I can barely articulate what it means to me. It’s…

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Another Post-Natal Depression Update…

April 17, 2013
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I‘ll give one thing to Post-Natal Depression; it certainly hangs around a bit! The last couple of weeks have been OK, bar a couple of beacon-like lovely days in the middle. Elfie’s back to her tricks of waking me up 2 or 3 times a night and this broken sleep affects my mood like nothing else. I’m getting pretty bored of feeling tired and wish my body responded better to caffeine. Shakes and nausea after too many espressos are Not…

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High Five For PND!

March 15, 2013
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I expect you have all been waiting with baited breath to find out how my week of medical professionals has gone. Yes? Yes. It has been a tough week, I won’t lie. Very hard. There have been emotions, discussions, realisations. Man flu. Tiredness. My Health Visitor came to see me on Monday and she could not have been more supportive. She listened to me and asked all the right questions to get me talking. She was at our house for…

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Happy Mother’s Day

March 10, 2013
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Oh yes, there was an Elfie/Mummy/kitchen scissors haircutting incident. Ahem. More on that soon. As usual, writing about the way I was feeling yesterday was more therapeutic for me than anything. Getting it all off my chest, hearing I’m not alone and knowing that actually this isn’t all in my head was such a huge boost. To everyone who responded and emailed: thank-you, I totally ran out of puff when it came to responding last night so I will be…

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A PND Brain Dump

March 9, 2013
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At the moment all I want to do is wake up in the morning and feel happy to start the day. I cringe when I open my eyes because I feel so groggy, I don’t want to be forced down the stairs to feed little mouths and minds. I don’t like that I dread opening the curtains because then the light will come in and I will have to acknowledge that this is another day, another 15 hours of struggle…

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Still Here But A Little Bit Tired

January 30, 2013
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Marvellous mum and marvellous Kaisa At the moment I feel like my life is revolving around PND. I usually find it easy and enjoyable to sit at my computer daily and shape some thoughts into a blog post, but I’m totally coming up blank. All I can think about is PND… PND… I’m starting to bore myself and am getting worried about boring other people. It’s a pretty exhausting thing to be dealing with. I’m experimenting with the medication I’m…

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PND: An Update

January 7, 2013
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I have never been scared of going to the doctors or hospital. I spent my early twenties with endometriosis and have suffered many an uncomfortable exam, so I’ve always been pretty pragmatic about getting naked in the name of medicine. When in labour with Hux at my first exam/sweep I remember turning wide eyed to Will saying “did you see that? She put her WHOLE HAND in. WOAH”. In general I find the world of modern medicine fascinating rather than…

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A Big Festive Thank-You

December 30, 2012
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  You lovely people. I laughed and cried and smiled with the lovely words I received after my last post. Every comment, tweet, email and text was such a lift; knowing I am not on my own in the way I am feeling meant so much and all your warm wishes were just wonderful. I had no idea so many had been here and it felt good to understand that I’m not alone, far from it actually. I wrote that…

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