Me, pre-babies by Ted Williams
The last couple of days have been great for me. I’ve thought about a lot of things: where I am now, where I want to be in the future, what makes me happy and how I can be the best person I can be for my family. My end of year meltdown has come at a brilliant time; I’m a huge fan of clean slates and new starts so 2013 is going to be the year I turn things around, get more proactive and happy. I think I give off the impression of being busy and fulfilled when really I think I have so much more potential, so much more to give to myself and the babies. I don’t want to feel like I’m letting anyone down anymore.
So I’ve taken the last couple of days to consider my New Years resolutions. I want to accomplish things this year, I want to look back next December feeling I lived my life, I didn’t let it pass me by. I’d like to grow more as a person, teach my children, grow my business, inspire my husband, cherish my friends and experience new things.
Find something I can do for ME
At the moment when I have alone time I either go back to bed to catch up on sleep or I work. I don’t think these are particularly good uses of downtime so it’s about time I found more ways to relax. I’d love to start horse riding again, or find a local dance class. Maybe even just make an effort to sit and read a magazine alone in the coffee shop.
Grow my blog
This blog gives me so much pleasure. Ever since I started earning pocket money from it I have treated it like a job, but I’ve enjoyed it more than any job I’ve ever had: to me it is A Big Deal. I love to write, it’s what I’ve wanted to do my whole life and I feel lucky that the Internet lets me do that. In my best month in 2012 50,000 people read my drivel and I’d love to be reaching that many people on a more regular basis. Ditto MAMA… I still think there’s a resource missing for women who feel they don’t fit in at Mumsnet-type places and I’d love to fill that space.
When I was a kid I was really into amateur dramatics and my life goal was to be in Neighbors or Hollyoaks (I shit you not). I love to watch other people chat random rubbish on YouTube so I figure I should give it a go. I bought a camera tripod off eBay at 2am this morning when it seemed like the best idea in the world… watch out, Hollyoaks. There’s still time.
Help my mum start a blog
She’s been wanting to start one for AGES: so far we’ve registered a blog name for her and written her first post, I want to dedicate more time to helping her learn all about the wonderful world of blogging.
This is the year I get healthy. Luckily I got back down to my pre-pregnancy weight fairly swiftly after Hux but I would like to work on my wellbeing and wobbly bits. I’ll be attending a fitness class once a week and trying to do one other physical activity per week. I also want to change my relationship with alcohol. I’m not an alcoholic but I rely on it too much: it’s the thing I reach for when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I’m stressed. I have no off button either and have wasted too many days hungover when the night before I should have drank half the amount.
De-clutter and organize
I did FlyLady for a while last year and really enjoyed the process. We’re moving house in 10 days and I’m going to use this as an opportunity to bin a bunch of things that I never use, or are broken, and then move forward feeling uncluttered and uncumbered. I also want to continue using Evernote to be organized (LOVE this) and make use of my 2013 diary to program in baby groups and other activites to get us out the house more.
Work hard at what I love
The things I love are: Will and the babies, writing, work, cooking, keeping a clean and tidy house. These will be my focuses for the year.